I am excited!

here's that news that I couldn't tell you before...

I am going to be an aunt! My sister Angel is 14 weeks along (Due December 30th)

I will be moving back to the states from Germany in February. I will be in Cincinnati for most of the visit, but I will be going up to Northern Indiana to visit my grandparents and see my best friend, Arielle (known her for over 25 years)

I feel sad that I am going to miss seeing my niece or nephew...

I can't tell you yet...

I do not have permission to say the thing that I want to say.  I know that most people will want me to say it, but I just can't.  I know that you were wondering what it is about.  I can't tell you...

I can tell you...tomorrow...

Officially as of tomorrow, I can tell you what I learned two weeks ago Friday.  I'm so glad I will be able to tell everyone that thing that is making me happy.

happy end to a crappy week

k...this week was horrible...trying to find a way to live without Aby...
but I just learned something on Friday night that rocks my face off!
however, I cannot share it with you yet...when I get the go ahead, I will be sharing it!

hard days...

these are hard days.
This house is so empty without Aby.
I can't even imagine how hard it is going to be for John when he gets home.
I am going into work for planning today, but we shall see how that goes and see how I feel after I am there for a bit...
I really don't want to not work for another day. That's precious time that I am missing.
If I don't talk about what happened to Aby, I am fine. Once someone asks me "Are you okay?" I break down again.

My Dear Sweet Aby

Yesterday went off like normal. Just being lazy, me and Aby. She was eating, drinking, sleeping...being a dog.

I took her for her nighttime walk. Everything was normal. She even tried to chase a couple birds.

Then, we walked over and went into the door of our apartment building. We got up the first set of stairs, but when we got to the top of the second set, Aby fell over. Just like that. She started whining and crying, then she stopped breathing. I started screaming so loud and crying for someone to help me. Several of my neighbors ran out to see what was going on. One set of neighbors called the military police to find out what to do. Other neighbors sat by me and Aby on the stairwell. By the time the police showed up, she was gone.

We called a 24-hour vet. They directed us to a veterenarian in Ramstein villiage. He had to go to his workplace in the middle of the night (11pm), and we had to pay 75 Euro, but he took my Aby. I kissed her dear sweet head before he took her away.

This all just feels like the most horrific nightmare that I need to wake up from. When I woke up this morning without her, my heart started to ache. It was a dreamless, not restful sleep. I got maybe 3 hours.

Work today is an impossibility. I just start crying whenever I remember that Aby isn't here anymore.

I thank you all for your prayers and your thoughts.

becoming a Gleek!

I just recently have been starting to watch Glee.
Loving it immensely!

Just started watching Season 2...and just loving every minute.
I did start watching Heores on Netflix, but I didn't know that there were only 4 seasons...Felt like it needed another one.Oh well, you don't always get what you want...
Just wanted to share that I have found a show that I like...a lot

Sleep? Not so much...

well, here's the deal, I didn't sleep great at all. My brain was too busy all night. Which is strange, because I wasn't thinking of anything before I went to sleep. It just was very frustrating.

Aby couldn't sleep either. She kept getting up and walking around, laying back down. By 5am, we were both kinda up, and I got up and went to the bathroom (tmi...i know). Then when I went back to bed, I motioned for Aby to get up there with me. She laid down at the end of the bed, and we eventually fell asleep and didn't get up till 8am...
Now, you would think, "oh, she got at least 3 hours of good sleep, right?" WRONG!
I just could not make my brain be quiet. I did all I was supposed to do yesterday, and then I was bored out of my mind when I went to sleep, so maybe the fact that I wasn't as tired as I thought when I went to bed had something to do with the fact that I couldn't sleep at all.

So, hopefully the rest of the day today will go okay. I don't have anything planned, and I really want something to do. I need to really focus on something today, keep my mind busy, so I can get a good night's sleep tonight...

Raining. Pouring.

I love rain! I love the smell before, during and after it. I love the sound. The sound can lull me to sleep.

it is raining right now in Germany...lovin' it! and it is so hot and humid right now...it is cooling it down a lot...

oooooo! Just heard some Thunder!!! Whee hah!!!

figured out the tv

I finally figured out the television thing...
Just finished watching 3 episodes of "Everybody Loves Raymond"
and now, there are 3 episodes of "King Of Queens"
Rock On!
I do love to watch both of these shows...of course I started watching them after they were canceled, and never watched them before a couple years ago...
I love watching Leah Remini!
I have received personal tweets on Twitter from Leah--which rocks my face off!!!

yeah...umm...

When you have cleaned all you're gonna clean for the day, and you have nothing really to do...and you can't figure out the t.v. system, cause you have to turn on like 4 machines just to get it workin'...

It's BORING!

I don't think I have ever been this bored...
maybe I will try and figure out the t.v. again...

Cleaning Day...again

Hubby is gone till Wednesday, and I want to get this house looking amazing for when he comes back. So, in my attempt at organization, here is my to-do list today that will get crossed off as it gets done:
Get all laundry done.
Put Laundry away.
Organize closets and drawers.
Clean Master Bedroom.

see? It really isn't that much...actually, I just realized it as I was typing it out. So, it should be no problem getting these few things out of the way, so that the house can look awesome.

I have to also rewrite a script that we are performing in a few weeks with my drama club at work. I hope that it will help the kids to be able to see their names on the script, instead of the character names. And, I hope that it is all a success. s-u-c-c-e-s-s, that's the way we spell success. (that was a song that we sang to the kid in my 5th grade class when he was going off to the spelling bee...random thought, I know, but that's actually how I remember how to spell success when I am typing)

so, now to get started on this house...wish me all sorts of luck guys...

starting another blog...

I don't know if I will keep up with this one or not, but we can only hope.

Let's see...what is happening in my life at the moment?
My dog, Aby, is in heat right now, and she is driving me insane.
My husband, John is TDY to Normandy France right now for the invasion anniversary.
My house is actually lookin' pretty good right now, despite the fact that the cleaning schedule is off a bit.
I will be doing laundry tomorrow and cleaning the house.
I am working towards getting my Youth Development Credential, which is going to mean some hard work on my part, but I hope that it will give me a heads up when applying for a job when we move to Arkansas in February.
I hate having the sun come up at 430am in the summertime, because I sleep better when it is dark.
I am currently rewriting a script that a group of kids at work are going to be performing in a couple weeks. I run a drama club.
I don't have much else to say, so let's just hope I can blog here more often than I did on Xanga...