hard days...

these are hard days.
This house is so empty without Aby.
I can't even imagine how hard it is going to be for John when he gets home.
I am going into work for planning today, but we shall see how that goes and see how I feel after I am there for a bit...
I really don't want to not work for another day. That's precious time that I am missing.
If I don't talk about what happened to Aby, I am fine. Once someone asks me "Are you okay?" I break down again.